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Well, What Are You Going to Do?

It’s funny. The one question that I keep getting when I tell people that I am retired is “what are you going to do?”. I don’t have a good answer. There are a lot of things that I would like to do, but I’m not sure that I’m actually going to do them. Some of them cost too much money, some of them take too much time, others require years of preparation and changes in my life that aren’t easy to accomplish. I feel strange talking about those things because I know that I probably won’t do a lot of them and if I do accomplish some, it may not be for years. And, well, right now I am just too darn busy (!!!!) to get to many of those items. I’m beginning to wonder how I ever managed to remain sane with two of us working and our preference to never hire out help around the house. No wonder I was tired and cranky a lot of the time.

The more I think about this, the more I realize that it’s not so much what I am going to do, but what I am trying to accomplish. Goals and actions are quite different. I’m working toward very high level goals – and the actions that are necessary to achieve those goals are merely a byproduct.

  • Spend more time with family and friends – Also known as the “no hermit” rule. Unless I can’t actually do something I plan on accepting every invitation that comes my way.
  • Work only with people I respect and trust – Over time, I plan on doing a little consulting for “toy money”. I will only take on assignments with people I genuinely like working with and who I trust.
  • Stay healthy and fit – Good whole foods comprised mostly of fruits, veggies, nuts and grains. Exercise – and lots of it. This might not be a structured program anymore, but whatever seems like fun at the time. Hiking, biking, kayaking, volleyball, weight training and so on. The number on the scale doesn’t really matter as long as I feel good.
  • Become more aware of the world around me – In other words, continue to learn. This touches everything. I’ve started a list of all of the different varieties of birds that I see in my yard. I’m reading a lot more classic literature. I’m learning more about other people’s political biases that I had previously dismissed.
  • Bring creativity and fun to what I do – You can never have too much fun – and every task no matter how mundane can be filled with creativity. Check out this fruit bowl that I made over the weekend. I could have just chopped up some fruit for a party that I was going to, but instead I spent part of my day learning how to make something that would delight the eye.

The thing that I like best about my goals is that even if I do a little bit more than I did in the past, I will consider myself successful. If I pick something like “hike the Appalacian Trail” (which quite frankly I would like to do, but it is just not feasible right now) and I don’t get to it, I’ll feel like a failure. In my work life I always thought that very specific goals were most important because they gave me something to shoot for. In my retired life – it’s just the opposite. The joy is in the journey. I’m picking goals that bring more joy to my life and less “gotta accomplish this” stress. How refreshing!

My Stroke of Insight

Lately I’ve been going further down the rabbit hole of neuroplasticity. It is a fascinating topic. As you may know, my dad suffered a stroke and for the past few years I have been struggling to understand how it has impacted him and to understand if it ever will be possible for him to improve his mental function. He had a stroke that affected his right hemisphere near the brain stem. In some ways it is amazing that he lived and has recovered as much as he has. Unfortunately, he hasn’t recovered to the extent that he would like. It has been a few very hard years.

In order to better understand stroke and how it impacts an individual I thought that reading the book “My Stroke of Insight” by Jill Bolte Taylor would help. Jill is a PhD scientist who has extensively studied the brain, mainly with respect to mental illness. When she was 37 she suffered a major left hemisphere stroke. This book is her tale. It is an amazing story of recovery from a traumatic brain injury.

This book walks through her experience, from the morning she had her stroke through her recovery 8 years later. Since her stroke impacted the opposite hemisphere than my dad’s it gave me some perspective in terms of what voices were silenced in my father’s head. Strangely, a right hemisphere stroke probably is harder to recover from. The left hemisphere provides the daily “brain chatter” that causes many of us to not consider compassion and one-ness with the universe. The left helps define your sense of self and individuality. It also is the seat of negative thought processes that cause us all a lot of grief.

If you’re interested to hear her tell her tale – check out
Jill Bolte Taylor’s TED talk

The Shallows…

I finally finished the book “The Shallows: What the Internet Is Doing to Our Brains” by Nicholas Carr. Do you feel like the internet has made it harder for you to concentrate? Do you multitask *all* the time? When was the last time you sat down and read a book? Do you just skim reading material? How is your reading comprehension?

I admit it, I am not the reader I once was. Oh, I read online all the time, but it takes a lot more effort for me to read a book these days. If you look at my reading list on linkedin, you’ll see multiple books that I am reading all at the same time. I get bored, or I have a library deadline to meet and I put down the book I own and pick up one that has to go back. I definitely get distracted more easily and I find it harder to really get lost in the pages like I used to. I always assumed it was just my middle-aged brain getting older. Now, I can blame something else. The internet! SWEET!! My brain’s neuroplasticity coupled with the internet’s addictive qualities means that I am rewiring my brain to multitask rather than think deeply. Really?

When books first became commonplace, similar arguments were made. There was too much information available, it was stressing people out. Books definitely changed the oral history that humans used to amass. Memorization became less necessary. There was a fear that because of books people would no longer have to remember anything.

This reminds me of a saying I’ve heard recently – “I don’t bother remembering anything that I can look up”. Heck, the cell phone has had as much of an impact on me here as the internet. When was the last time you actually entered a phone number from memory? Seriously. If I didn’t have my contacts list on my cell phone I could only call 2 people, my husband and my dad. Is this bad? I’m not sure. It’s kind of nice to free up that memory space.

The one thing that really hit me is that using the internet tends to mostly use your short-term working memory. If you over tax that, it is much harder to make long-term memories. Is it a problem that I don’t remember all the stuff I read? Tweets? Blogs? Facebook statuses? The breadcrumb trail of hyperlinks? Junk e-mails? Probably not. How do you make long-term memories? Repetition. Reliving the memory over and over again. That’s why people remember the most important good and bad things that happen in their lives. They replay them. I know I do.

I think the author is a bit of a fatalist when it comes to this topic. Yes, the internet will change (I think it already has) our society and our brains dramatically. So did the book. So did the map. So did the clock. Are things better or worse today because of these items? I would venture to say better. Read this book and make up your own mind.

Glub glub glub…

Geez, has it been almost 2 weeks since I’ve even been out here? I guess it has. I’m still drinking from the firehose known as the new job over here and I don’t have a lot of mental energy for deep thought after work. My dreams are weird enough these days – I don’t want to provoke the beast without reason.

One thing that I am very thankful for is that one of my new peers is in exactly the same situation that I am. In fact, (shhh) I think that he might be somewhat worse off. I’m starting something from scratch and he’s trying to piece together all of the old history of something with a tight deadline. There is nothing like being in the trenches with someone that understands what you are going through.

What have a I learned in the last 2 weeks?

  • I have some really smart and dedicated people on my team who are doing the architecture and the prototyping. They will get it right.
  • My product manager is amazing. He knows the industry, he knows the clients, and he knows what we need to accomplish.
  • My project manager only cares about doing the right things to get the product shipped. Between the two of us we’ll balance tasks anyway we can to be successful. No egos, just get it done.
  • I’ve got a lot of organizational bridges to build. I’m doing my best to get to know people across the company who can help this product succeed. It will take some time.
  • My team has recently been put together. We *need* to create our own team culture.
  • I still have a LOT to learn. A humbling amount. But. I. Will. Get. There.

What’s Really Important – Smart People

One thing that I’ve learned over time is that you can never know – or be good at – everything. There just aren’t enough hours in the day. Everyone has a few things that they concentrate on and really excel at. The key to a successful project is to have the right combination of those people. If everyone is good at the same things, they will be tripping all over each other. When I build a team, I look first and foremost for wicked smart people, and I try to find ones that have had all different types of experiences. I also I look for people who can work with others, but that’s a topic for another post.

How do you determine who is really smart versus someone who is a poser? Sometimes it isn’t easy. There are a lot of people who talk smart, but when the rubber hits the road they can’t get things done. Really smart people can apply what they know in a practical way. They also learn more from their mistakes than their successes. The fact that they are willing to acknowledge their mistakes is a big part of being smart. Some people never make mistakes – all of the problems they encounter are blamed on external forces outside of their own control. Other people never make mistakes because they never put their ideas into practice. Philosophizing about the best way to do something without actually trying it out isn’t a good way to get smarter.

I like working with people who I consider to be smarter than I am in their area of expertise. As a leader I don’t need to know all of the technical details of a project. Heck, I might not even understand all of it. That’s ok. I’ve got someone who does working for me. It’s really great if they know what they know – and even better if they know what they don’t know. That provides an opportunity for another expert to be involved – or it provides an opportunity for growth and learning.

What is not being smart:

  • Going to the right school or getting the right degree and considering education as “completed”.
  • Having a very strong opinion without being able to see other options.
  • Being firmly rooted by experience. i.e. – this worked before it will work again.

What is being smart:

  • Curiosity about the world and how it works. Striving to learn something new everyday.
  • Having a strong opinion, but also having a willingness to listen to new ideas.
  • Using experience as a basis for creativity – this worked before – how can we make it even better?

What’s Really Important – Learning

At first I was going to skip this post because I’ve already blogged about learning on the job and learning off the job. However, today I had another learning experience. I’ve been going back and forth with The Mad Peacock about what he’s trying to accomplish with his blog. He has even asked me to guest blog on his site – and boy do I have a post planned. During this interaction I realized that there are a lot of things that I can do with my blog that I am just not doing. I was worrying about the message but not the delivery. Shame on me. I’ve been treating my blog like it was a hobby instead of like it was a work project. I didn’t have a plan (except interesting leadership/business content), I didn’t have a schedule, and I didn’t make it easy for people to find me or search my site.

Things that are changing/have changed:

  • Notice a cleaned up theme and sidebar with a new gravatar. My look was getting old. I’m still looking for a better picture that isn’t as posed, but no luck yet.
  • Categories and tags. After a year of blogging I finally figured out what these should be for my blog. This was painful I went back to every post I ever wrote and updated them. I should have done this long ago.
  • Content frequency. Ok, a few posts per month isn’t going to cut it. I need to set goals for myself. For now it is two posts per week. That’s achievable. I hope to step it up soon.
  • Speaking of goals – what is the purpose of this blog? Who is my audience? I’m working on how to describe that.
  • Visibility. It’s time to start commenting on blogs I read and not just lurk. I also need to start interacting with people more on Twitter. Who is going to find me if I am not interacting with others?
  • I’m going to personally brand my blog – www.winethinker.com will likely be more personal very soon.

Time to apply what I’ve learned. Hope it makes your reading more enjoyable. Please let me know if it doesn’t – or if you have any other ideas to make things better!

What is Really Important?

Lately I’ve been reflecting about what is most important to me about work. If I were to run my own company what would I focus on? Here’s my top 10 list, in no particular order.

  1. Transparency – I think by now you all know how I feel about this one. Companies are much better off when leaders share more than rather than less.
  2. Doing Good – I want to make a difference, don’t you? If I had my druthers I would work on technology that improves the quality of life. This might be a medical advance, an alternative energy play, or even something like software that makes managing IT infrastructure easier and reduces manual labor. There are many ways to look at this.
  3. Learning – If I am not learning something new, I am not growing. Earlier in my career I read tech books and volunteered for new projects. These days I read management books, and I like to learn from people I work with. Leading teams working on new technology is also fun for me. Read about my learnings in this post.
  4. Smart People – What I really mean is working with people that are smarter than I am. I like to identify people to hire that are wicked smart – and motivated. Delegating is easy with folks like this! I also learn a lot more too.
  5. Collaboration – I enjoy working in a culture where people collaborate rather than compete. It is no fun if work turns into a proposition where if one person wins the other loses. I’d rather have everyone succeed together.
  6. Respect – Everyone, and I mean everyone on the team deserves respect. One of the best ways to demonstrate it is to really listen to what people are saying. You’ll learn a lot about their opinions and what really motivates them. It’s the best way to understand what is important to each member of the team. Some of my thoughts on respect.
  7. Diversity – For me this isn’t just a buzzword. The best team that I’ve ever led had geographic, ethnic, gender, and perspective diversity. Folks didn’t always agree – but that’s what made the team so powerful.How diversity can help you.
  8. Balance – Work is important, but there are other things in life besides work. I’ve done the 100 hour weeks and I can tell you that it really leaves nothing for your personal life. I’m willing to work hard, but I always make sure to take some time for myself too.
  9. Fun – If a work environment isn’t fun the days drag on forever. A sense of fun and play helps foster camaraderie in the team.
  10. Trust – This cuts both ways. Management needs to trust their team to do their jobs to the best of their ability without micromanaging. This includes the flexibility to work how, when, and wherever the person is most effective. In return, the team needs to trust that management is going to steer the company in a fiscally prudent manner and make appropriate strategic decisions.

Pride in my Work

My endless painting saga continues. I guess that is no surprise. As long as I have rooms in my house that haven’t been repainted and I haven’t found the right new work environment, I will continue to update the way my home appears. As I have mentioned before, doing physical labor helps take my mind off of the all consuming job search and it makes me feel like I am accomplishing something useful.

I’m doing all this painting for a few reasons. First, my house is over 10 years old now, and some of the rooms (and all of the ceilings) have not been painted since we moved in. Clearly it is time. After a while walls get dings, dents, and scuff marks and ceilings tend to look a little dingy. In my case the tallest ceilings are also having issues with the sheet rock tape coming loose at the angle joints. Talk about a nightmare. My sheet rockers and painters weren’t the best I’m afraid and I have been repairing their work every time I paint a room. Second, as my job search continues the likelihood of me having to move my family grows. A clean and freshly painted house sells better, pure and simple. I try not to think about the second reason, but it is there, lurking in the back of my mind. This economy might force me to sell my dream home and relocate for a new position.

I don’t know about you – but I never knew the right way to fix loose sheet rock tape before. You’d think that you could just slap on a bunch of spackle and it will stick back down. It doesn’t. I thought maybe I needed more spackle. Well, that made for a lumpy looking ceiling joint, but at 14′ off the ground, it wasn’t *that* noticeable. I sanded and painted it, and figured that I would get to painting the walls today. No dice. While I was up on my ladder taping the ceiling to wall joint (makes for a really clean straight paint edge) I noticed that my patch job wasn’t looking all that professional. It was already starting to crack a bit. I’m sure that it would have held up for a couple of months – or longer. I just didn’t like it, I didn’t feel like I had done my best. I surely wasn’t proud of the job, more embarrassed I would say.

In the meantime I figured out the right way to fix ceiling joint tape. You cut it out and replace the entire section that is coming loose. Between the fact that I didn’t like the way it came out, and the knowledge that I had done it WRONG in the first place it really began to eat at me. I kept hearing that little voice in my head – “You did a crummy job. You really need to do it right. So what if nobody will notice it besides you – you notice that it looks bad.” I have a hard time shutting up that voice. Most times I can’t. I always feel the need to do the best possible job that I can. I guess I need a caveat here – there are times when I don’t have the resources (money, time, expertise) to do the best. I still strive to do the best I can based on the circumstances. Even with that caveat I sometimes am not happy with myself. There are different levels of best – unlimited time and money sometimes can bring a much higher level of “best”. In this case, I had the time. I had the tools (power sanders etc). Joint tape and spackle is dirt cheap (<$10). I had leftover ceiling paint for touch up too. After some learning I now had the expertise. Clearly it was time to tear up my work and start over again. Ouch.

It's had to tear up my own work. I know how hard it was to do in the first place. Even though I wasn't happy with it, I still didn't want to start all over. I thought I was all done with that ceiling. Besides, I had never done this correctly before. What if I screwed it up even more? I just had to jump right in and start yanking up joint tape. So I did. Once I got started, it really wasn't that hard. The worst part was holding an orbital sander high above my head standing on the top of a 10' ladder. Sanding wasn't too bad, it was all the junk that floated down and managed to get under my safety glasses that bothered me.

So now, I wait. The new tape is up and spackled. I'll need to sand it tomorrow to see how it looks. Right now it already looks better than my last attempt. I'm feeling pretty good. I did the right thing.

Reflecting on my work life, I've torn things up and redone them more than once. It's part of who I am. I've rewritten large software subsystems that were showing their age. I've tossed entire designs when an ah-ha moment has hit me. If I am presented with the right opportunity that gives me the time and resources to improve on my work, I will seize it. Sometimes I have had to bide my time. Sometimes I have been very fortunate and have been able to take care of a problem in short order. I've been known to keep lists of things that I am planning on addressing in the future. What can I say, my work is a reflection of who I am. I want my work to be something that I can be proud of.

Lifelong Learning

Recently I had the opportunity to reflect back upon all of the training I’ve received in order to become the leader that I am today. In my career I was extremely fortunate that I received a significant amount of management training before I was even considered for promotion into the role. I find the coaching of potential, junior, and mid-level managers to be critical to longer term success. Even as a senior manager I believe that it is important to continue learning, and to not always fall back on previous experiences.

Early in my career I worked for a company that had a mandatory training and assessment course for all potential managers. It identified if someone was ready to manage people, and the areas in which they were weak and strong. This was a course that could be failed and a person wouldn’t be promoted to a management position if it was. I remember this class as being very stressful. There were timed prioritization of work assignments, interviews, and video taped role playing exercises in which instructors acted as difficult subordinates and customers. This course started my foray into management.

I’ve also had some training that wouldn’t be classified as management training, but it helped me become a much better manager. One form of this type of training that I received is often dismissed by staff as being irrelevant – and that is diversity training. I found it helped me understand how to be sensitive to race, religion, and gender as well as realizing that different people have different motivations for what they do. Engineers may seem to all be very similar but in fact they are not. You can’t expect someone to want to do the same things that you want to do for all the same reasons. Some people care about money, some about life balance, and some about challenging work or career development. I find this to be key to being a good manager because by understanding what a person’s motivations are, you can assign them work that they can be successful at. This training course also was very clear about what is and what is not appropriate in a work environment. In a similar vein, I also took a class that included the Meyers-Briggs Inventory. This was an eye opener for me because it showed how much diversity there is in the various personality types and how the different types are perceived. It also provided suggestions for how to deal with the different types. In engineering there are a few common ones, but there are always some people that are different and harder to read and work with. I happen to be an INTJ in case you are familiar with this method of personality evaluation.

As my career progressed, I signed up for more intensive training courses that spanned longer periods of time. Another company that I worked for footed the bill for a year long class that required me to travel to San Francisco monthly. This program was designed for high potential women managers with a minimum of 7 years of supervisory experience who were being groomed for senior management positions. The program and others like it are run by an organization called Women Unlimited. If you are a woman manager or if you have one reporting to you, I’d suggest investigating this. I found it to be one of the most useful training programs that I ever attended.

Once I got to Director and VP level positions my training focus changed. Now I find it to be a lot more self-directed and individualized. I continue to read books and articles voraciously to learn about new trends and ideas. For the last few years at my last company I met weekly with a psychologist who works with leadership teams at small companies as a career coach. He taught me to depend not only on my analytical capabilities but also on my intuitive abilities. He also taught the leadership team as a whole to be more focused and to use empathy in dealing with one another as a way to speed resolution of issues. This was invaluable. A lot of times in business we focus solely on the analytic and reasoning aspects of our work and little on the people and relationship issues.

These days I also enjoy sharing the knowledge that I have accumulated. As those of you who have been reading this blog for a while know, last year I presented at the IGDA Leadership Forum. I enjoyed preparing my presentation and sharing my management experiences so much that it compelled me to start this blog and become more active in the Web2.0 world. There are a number of pages on this website that give management instruction through examples. I also frequently post and comment upon interesting articles and topics that are personal growth, business, and management related. I am experimenting with the use of twitter to share additional articles that I find interesting that I don’t necessarily feel the need to comment about. I have a regular following on both of these mediums, and it is growing. This is really cool.

Keep on learning. Sometimes it doesn’t feel like you have enough time or that it is worth the effort involved. Do it, you never know when what you’ve learned might come in handy.

Do You Have a Fixed or a Growth Mindset?

Recently in Business Week What’s Your Leadership Mindset?

“Those with growth mindsets believe they can get better at what they do, that they have reservoirs of untapped potential. They realize that promise by working hard and making incremental improvements over time, whether they are athletes, or writers, or surgeons.

Those with fixed mindsets, however, believe they can only go as far as their natural abilities will take them. They think talent, rather than hard work, is the fundamental component of success. They are often scared to challenge themselves because they are terribly afraid of failure—which, in their minds, is an indictment of their abilities rather than an opportunity to learn and do better next time. “

Maintaining a growth mindset is a difficult thing over a long career. It is hard work to always be on the lookout for the next thing to learn about and to figure out how to apply it to improve what you do. Sometimes picking the wrong “new thing” can make you look pretty silly in the long run – however you will learn something from it anyway. I do wonder about the applicability of twitter for instance. I see it as a pretty good marketing tool, but people have to want to follow you and your message. It’s actually pretty easy to get people to unfollow you if they don’t like something that you tweet. In fact there are all sorts of tools you can use to see who stopped following you. But, I digress.

It is easy after doing a job for a few years to sit back and rest, and stop being hungry. I know that I’ve had that happen to me a few times. I recognize it, but it is oh so difficult to do anything about it. Typically I’ve found that a large change will reenergize me and get me learning and growing again. Sometimes this means learning and growing at work, sometimes it means learning and growing outside of work. New companies and new jobs are great for ramping up that growth. It can be scary to make a leap like that for some people, but frankly I enjoy it a lot. Those first few months are my favorite. Getting to know all the players, understanding the technology, figuring out where the problems are as well as the opportunities. It is a lot harder once you are entrenched in an organization to keep up the growth mindset. This typically involves challenging the people, the existing processes, and sometimes even the culture. Depending on the organization and your role in it, that can be a losing battle. In those cases you’re better of working on an incremental approach. What little thing can you do that makes things better? Ok – did someone else notice this and appreciate it? Good. What’s the next little thing you can do? Repeat. Also, don’t forget to keep delivering on what you’re supposed to do in the first place. Sometimes the incremental approach isn’t appreciated though. That is unfortunate.

One aspect of the quote above that I really liked was that failure should be seen as an opportunity to learn and do better next time. I actually try not to even use the word failure. I call those episodes – “learning experiences”. I think that anyone who has tried something new or difficult has had one or two of them. I know that I have. With every one that I have I find that I bounce back faster than the last. I prefer to stand up and dust myself off and say “well, I didn’t expect THAT to happen! I guess I need to be careful of it next time!” Into the mental file cabinet it goes.